girls

I'm back from youth conference. It was pretty fun. I really enjoyed my last year of it. Being able to hang out with my friends from other wards and meet new people from other stakes is probably my favorite part.
I don't know why, I don't do anything like, waaay out there or say mean things or act immaturely or just be dumb, but I just don't fit in with the girls in my ward. We're friendly and all, but... that's about it. I'm kind of tired of feeling excluded in almost everything that goes on when I'm with them. I'm the 3rd wheel, even if it's a group of girls and guys and there's more than a dozen people.
Also, with the girls by themselves, the gossip is huge. And despite countless efforts by our leaders to get them to stop, I don't think they get it. I hate listening to it. But they do it right in front of me all the time. It's kind of rude. And when I ask any question about what they're talking about when they're sitting RIGHT THERE, they just say something to the likes of (very quickly) "oh nothing" or one tells the other "no, don't tell! shh!!" or they roll their eyes, glance at me, then go back to their gossip.
K, I really don't care about what ridiculous drama these people brew up within their clique, but seriously, they don't have to tell me the whole story (because they've said it all in front of me already, minus the few things I'm not supposed to know or something), but if somebody has a question about what you're saying, you know, it's kind of polite to answer it with something other than a blank and unhelpful/uncaring answer. There's some big secret amongst them that I'm not in on, and for all I care it can stay that way, but it's getting inbetween me getting to know them any better at all. This last year and 1/2 I've kind of been trying to get to know them before I leave young women's, since I was sick all those years and didn't have a chance to interract as much, and now I actually feel more separated from them than ever. I don't like it, but I'm tired of dealing with it and don't see any point in wasting energy trying to build something that probably won't last.

But anyway, other than that, I had a great time at youth conference. I'm far too tired to write about it right now, though.