Observations

Over the last several months I have began to notice a certain attribute of mine.. something that makes me unique, something that makes up me. I am, and have always been, a very observant person. I don't do it on purpose, it's just simply the way that I am. I notice a lot of things. Sometimes I make observations and discover very complex things and am very proud of myself for creating a scientific theory, or a simple little song, or figuring out how some mystery works, or solving a myth. Then I find out somebody else already discovered/wrote/fixed it, and I had never heard of it. I was just born too late to have that kind of an impact on the world. Examples-I wrote the chicken dance lyrics "I don't wanna be a chicken I won't wanna be a duck so I'll shake my butt" when I was 9 years old. Completely on my own. My first church dance, everybody was singing it and I was astounded. I also came up with the quote "Everything is alright in the end. If it's not alright, it's not the end" completely on my own. about a year later, I saw it on a bumper sticker. :)

I often don't say anything about what I notice. Whether I notice something that I find peculiar, somebody's shirt tucked into their underwear, or something that I just simply happen to notice that has no obvious meaning to it at all, I usually don't say anything. Not because I don't want to, just simply because... I don't.

Well, tonight I feel like sharing some things I've observed.

Have you ever noticed how, in a conversation, be it over the internet, phone, in person, with any certain amount of people - adjectives and phrases will be repeated. So will impressions, tones of voice, and people will even laugh the same. If one person says something like "such a beauty!" somebody else will most likely say either the exact same thing or "what beauty!". Other words can be repeated, too. I remember just a few weeks ago, I was talking with somebody and in our conversation, I mimicked what my possible reaction would be to this other person's situation. Then she did the same thing, in her own words, but still the same. And it's hard to explain, but it kept continuing on... just one use of a certain sentence structure and a tone of voice had a complete impact on this person's view of the situation. It really makes me aware of how my voice comes across, how my tone, the words I use, how I use them, even my accent (which is a strange combination of the midwest and south and normal), my body language and physical appearance can all make a huge impact, even if I don't mean for them to. My mood, my facial expressions (which I make plenty of!), posture, everything. It may be a very subtle impact, but it's still there.

And I'm not saying any of this is bad, it's neither good nor bad, it's just simply... there. Like gravity. Now I could go into what could make good and bad impacts (just like you could go into the ups and downs of gravity.. no pun intended), but that's basic primary knowledge. I'm just a philosopher on the uninteresting and completely random. :)

Hand in hand with my level of observations comes memory. I am the memory bank in the house. I like knowing what has happened/is happening. I always have known. However I don't like gossip, which is kind of interesting. Being kept in the loop and gossip are 2 different things. Anyway. I won't recall any memories right now, I'm tired.

But through my observance, I observed these attributes of mine, my observance, and how that goes hand in hand with what I've always really known I had, a good memory.

I just suppose it's good for me to know these things so I can work to improve myself in every way. That's my goal for the next few years is to improve myself personally to prepare myself for the temple some day.