Pain, Pain, Go Away

And don't ever come back...

I see my GI tomorrow for a checkup appointment, and boy do I need one. Crohn's disease has decided to make a comeback this autumn with the same problem I've been having for nearly 2 years. And this problem hasn't been resolved by any of the medications my doctors have prescribed. Soothed, yes, temporarily better, but not gone, yes, but it always comes back. And worse every time. And now it's getting to a point where I don't want to live with it anymore. At first, I was saying "I'm not 100% healthy, but I'm at a spot that I can live with for the rest of my life if I need to." Well, things have increased since then, and I could live with this, but I don't think I should, and I don't think I should ignore it, I think things will only get worse if this goes unacted upon.
I don't know what the doctors will try next, but it sure as heck better not be prednisone. I refuse. Even if it was the only thing on earth that would fix this... I just don't think I could. Besides, I've tried local steroids (this problem is a very local problem, it's just getting bigger/spreading around the area. Still local, just spreading locally), and they haven't done much. I don't think being put on a medication that is only going to puff my face up and give me acne and mood swings and make me lose my already thin hair and lower my self esteem will really make anything better.

So if anybody reads this... please pray that the doctors will know what to do. I'm in quite a bit of pain almost all the time now and am living with it, I'm used to it.. but I don't like living with it, and just because I'm used to it doesn't make it OK. I mean, you could get used to torandos coming through your home town in the summer, but that wouldn't necessarily mean that the tornado ripping everything up is OK.

Blah.