Ups and Downs

Today was such a stupid day. There were tons of really big ups and downs.

Up: I got to sleep in because I have no morning classes on Thursday and I didn't have to be at work until 11.

Down: At work I seemed to do a lot wrong. I'm still training and my manager seemed impatient and kind of treated/taught me like she might teach her daughter. Example: She grabbed my arm to pull my hand out of my pocket and made me go wash my hands for it. In front of a customer and other employees. It was embarrassing. I know that's the rules [now], but the physical contact startled me a lot and I nearly cried... there's just something about certain physical contact with me that I'm just so sensitive to and I don't know why. But anyway, I can't tell whether she's impatient, or is just an extreme "teacher" who kind of forces you to learn. And it makes me really nervous.

Up: I got my paycheck today.

Down: My paycheck is like, $14. I wish I could get more hours in. And I can't wait until I'm not training anymore so my wage will go up to minimum wage...

Up: I didn't have to go to my 2:00 class today because it was canceled because of the Society of Composers Conference being held at Clarke, so all music classes are canceled.

Down: I signed up to sit at the registration desk for the Society of Composers Conference for an hour and ended up staying for 2 because the person who was supposed to take over at the end of my hour never showed up. I was extremely hungry, was really tired, and wanted to cry.

Up: I managed to sneak away for a couple of minutes, get cash out of an ATM and get something from the vending machine.

Down: I didn't have time to go home before my 5:20-7:30 class, so I sat at registration for 2 hours, then I helped some people fix some cellos (which is kind of neat to do, and neat to know that I was able to make some serious choices for them...), but then I had to go to my pointless boring class where I learned codes that I will never ever use in my life. And studied them. For 2 hours.

Up: We took a quiz at the end of class, it was the easiest quiz ever, and I finished class 15 minutes early. So I really only studied pointless codes for around an hour and 45 minutes.

Down: I left my leather coat at registration.

Up: I found it right where I left it.

Down: I was late to Institute again.

Up: It was the perfect lesson for today, talking about frustrations and being irritated and Nephi and how we deal with it, and knowing what to pray for and understanding the understanding that God has. Plus some other stuff, but it related 100% to my day.

Down: I went home around 8:30 and was hungry and there was nothing to eat and nobody home but the dogs and me.

Up: a vital part of my halloween costume came in the mail today while I was gone and made me really really happy. :)

Down: I have a really stupid dumb pointless piece of crap essay to write that is due tomorrow and I hate it and I should stop blogging and get to it. Grr this is so dumb.

Up: I made it through the day without crying. After all of this I'm surprised.