The Words and Works of Laura

Sometimes I feel like giving up on doctors. All the numbers come back normal - beyond normal even, it appears that I am very healthy. "You are probably better nourished than I am" my doctor said. Because I drink Boost nutritional drinks every day. I sometimes wonder if maybe I stopped doing the things I do that healthy people don't have to do, they would realize that I am not well. But I know that would be stupid because obviously I have control over that part, and that's wonderful. But that doesn't mean I'm not having a hard time.

This pain is exhausting. Eating is exhausting. Eating hurts. Living hurts. My head hurts.

I hate complaining, too. I hate sounding whiny.
But I have to vent about this some time.

I get so dizzy. I have such hard crashes from when I'm feeling well to when I suddenly feel like crap. It wipes me out.
Driving is scary. Especially if I experience one of these "crashes".
School is so hard with this. Getting from class to class, remaining physically upright and attentive.
I'm so tired.