The Words and Works of Laura

Golly depression is a kick in the butt sometimes.
I am so tired of this lonely worthless feeling. Mostly loneliness... The semester is over and all of my friends went back home. Old friends are back in town, but I was never really super close to anybody in particular before they left for college anyway, so it's really not any different because our only form of communication is still via the internet. Lame. My good friend Scott just passed away suddenly from a rare cancer that came on very quickly. I never take any of my friendships for granted because the good ones are always so far and few in between, and he didn't take them for granted either, and it hurts to lose a growing friendship this way. I know and firmly believe in the Plan of Salvation, so I know everything is OK, but the heartbreak of losing a friend is still there. And on top of everything going on in life right now... I know it could be worse, I know other people have it harder, but for goodness sakes I'm struggling to stay above water. And I'm fighting for the struggle. I'm really trying. It is getting exhausting.
Losing friends seems to be a trend this year. And that's just it. I miss everybody. Everything.

I'm being told to go to bed.
I'm just lonely.
And nobody reads this anyway so it's not like there's really a point to this post.