I had the strangest dream last night, and I hated it. It wasn't really a nightmare, just a really weird/kind of bad dream. It started off I was leaving home, after having been told I was going to be moving out. Just me, not my family or anything. I'd be moving to South Dakota. (why south dakota, I have no idea.) I'd also be going to my senior year of high school there (even though I've graduated... it's a dream). So I was on a very old dirty bus, moving there/heading to school. I was talking with people and found that the school was really tiny, only about 300-500 students there. The people weren't very nice at all. Also for some reason I was in a hospital bed. I guess my dreaming just decided to throw that in there? I'm not sure if it was a hospital bed or not, but the viewpoint from everything was as if I was in a hospital bed. Craning my neck to see what's around me, not really moving my torso or legs around, having to make huge full-body turns just to turn around, and kind of being barred in at the sides. Anyway. I was asking what the weather was like in this place, and they said it rains about 3 days of the year, the rest is just dry windless heat, but only for a short while, because then it's dry and brutal winter for about 8 months of the year. I was scared because I didn't pack any winter clothes (let alone any clothes I guess...) and I wanted to go home soooo badly, but I couldn't because we had already paid for me to be out there. I would have to live with these disgusting people who constantly make out in the hallway for a whole year. Oh, and I was told to sign up for the school's musical, Sleeping Beauty, and all of a sudden I was on this stage in a very long golden dress, laying "dead" on a bed (the Sleeping Beauty role) with people dressed like mice from the Disney Cinderella movie making me another dress and poking and prodding me to get my measurements (I told you it was really weird!), waiting for the prince to come wake me. Then I was back on the dirty bus and it was just really ugly outside, nothing but a dead-colored desert that went on forever and lonely gray cloudy skies that didn't promise rain, just gloominess. Everybody just told me to get over it. And the whole time I was just missing the rolling green hills and the trees, blue skies, the sun and the warm breeze (especially the warm breeze, the air didn't move in my South Dakota dream! Made it hard to breathe...), the Mississippi River, and people that I actually knew. That was about it...
Anyway, the dream really disturbed me, so I thought I'd share it, and break it down, just to clear it up, for my sake.
And I know where everything came from, which is kind of reassuring. :P
- Moving out - as a graduation gift I'll be spending about a month in Utah with my cousins, that will be either this Christmas time or next summer. My parents and I were discussing it just last night before I went to bed.
- South Dakota - we almost moved there 6 years ago, moved to Iowa instead. Also, I have a friend who is moving to North Dakota. I vaguely remember in the dream thinking "well, at least Sarah is just one state up north..." Still, I like Iowa better.
- The small school comes from a friend I met at youth conference telling me his school is very small, only about 1000 people.
- Hospital bed view... I was talking yesterday with somebody, I don't remember who, about how I have a doctor who, when he's pushing you in a hospital bed, shouts "beep beep!" and it's kind of funny, and I was just remembering the veiw of being pushed in a hospital bed. Also wathing "Mystery Diagnosis" on TLC with their camera angles being in a looking-up-from-a-hospital-bed-at-the-ceiling kind of angle.
- I was also discussing how weather is different in different places with somebody yesterday. Really random and unimportant to my life. But my dreams find it necessary.
- I hate the cold winter, therefor I was not happy about it being winter for that long.
- The musical - I was thinking yesterday about what musical my high school might be doing this next year, and I'm betting they do a Disney one, or just a really good one that I was always hoping they'd do, since most of the ones they did while I was there were pretty crappy. Cinderella mice in the middle of a Sleeping Beauty show is just the Disney theme again.
- And at the end I was just appreciating the place where I live, I guess.
I prefer the dreams I have where I go up to the attic of our 100+ year old Queen Ann Victorian home (which is where my bedroom is) and I discover a door that I hadn't ever noticed before, I open it and discover a clean, white hallway with 2-3 more doors, which are usually a cherry-wood kind of color with those kind of horizontally long brazzy handles that kind of curl at the end? We had them in my house in Texas. Those lead to worlds unknown with more doors to be opened, and it's all just so cool. Haha.
Oh, and I had these dreams before I read about Harry Potter and his reach-the-door-and-see-what's-behind-it dreams came around. :)
Yes, I'm done.





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